I can’t do this anymore y’all . I’m trying so hard to be strong hoping one day y’all both come back to me . I don’t have anyone to talk too I have none to listen ; no one to help me thru it. Depression really does kill … idk if I can fight this anymore. I feel like I’m drowning and idk how to let go and it’s killing me . I don’t wanna seem weak . I don’t wanna go out this way . Maybe I’ll be at peace finally. Maybe I’ll see my gma again. I’m not okay and I’ve been knowing this trying to fight it for a while . Bc if I’m not here how can y’all come back to me ya know . But it feels like this is never ending and I just want the pain to go away . August will be a year I lost y’all ; and it still hurts like it just happened yesterday. I don’t know how to make it go away . I’ve thought about doing this spell to help me let go but I know if I do it it’ll take away the chance if y’all are meant to come back and I want that I want y’all to come back but I don’t wanna keep hurting and hurting myself praying y’all come back . … Tumblr has always been my escape back in high school it’s where I can put everything I feel and knowing I won’t be to judge by it . I’m not happy I’m just trying to get by day by day night by night . But how can I when everytime I dream I can literally hear Mario saying “hey Sylvanna “ in his exact voice … and it kills me every S.I.N.G.L.E time .
